Go to sleep another day in vein Tried to drown my sorrows and all that pain
Four drinks in and I didn’t feel the same
As a matter of fact I couldn’t feel a thing
Something happens at around twelve drinks in
When I’m all alone and feel like I don’t have a friend
I turn the bottle up again thinking I should do myself in
I get angry and destroy everything around
I drank enough whisky to put an average man down
Why am I here again I say with my head low
What happened to me I do not know
I don’t understand how it’s all turned to shit
It’s everything, I just don’t get it
Everything is spinning I need to lay down
This is as good as any this spot on the ground
My head is humming buzzing in my ears
It’s the same thing again, I’ve been doing for years
My nightly prayer was to let it end
So I didn’t have to wake up like Groundhog Day and do it again
Waking in the morning angry at the world
Wife says what’s wrong with you, I say I woke up, what a pearl
I’m sick of this stuff
She was the one who had it rough
When it hurt bad enough I finally stopped
I remember praying a lot
I started going to meetings and just didn’t drink
I started listening to people I didn’t even know
Because they were sober and I had no place to go
Someone told me I should be proud of myself for being a jerk
It was the culmination of my entire life’s work
I should be happy and give myself a pat on the back
He asked if that made me angry, I wanted to give him a smack
I said yes
He said, that’s because It’s true you’re really a mess
The good news is you never have to feel this way again
All you have to do is change everything my friend
I have to admit I didn’t know what he meant then
He said what are you willing to do to get sober again
I’ll do anything, I want it to be over
Since then I’ve made many less mistakes when I started over
By doing whatever it takes, willingness to change has set me free
I had to trust somebody else so that I could see my drinking wasn’t the problem, the problem was me.
I had a living hell of a life that I created
I let go and was emancipated
God will set you free if you trust in him and do the work
Test the theory and see if it’s true begin to pray and it will happen for you, even I stopped being a jerk!
Recovered Alcoholic, Jason
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